She's a looker she is.I have to be honest the day she was born was the worst day of my life.
Long story, brace yourself.
After my sister had my first two nieces so closer together I assumed that she would quickly have another one with her husband. Wrong-0. Alexis was getting to be 4, almost 5 and there was no newborn coming along. I thought I might nicely ask (bug the crap out of) my sister and see what the deal was. Well I can't say I'M the one that did it, but my sister got pregnant pretty quick after that. Oh I was so excited!
My sister and BIL make freaking cute kids. I knew this one would be no different. I felt different with this niece because I was a lot older and I felt like I knew a lot more about being an aunt. BTW, my sister never found out what any of her kids were before birth. I so plan on doing that too. Who cares about the stupid shower! I even helped name her. I came up with Halle, no matter WHAT my sister says. Like Halle Berry.
So flash forward to September 16, 2002 my sister's due date. No baby. Flash forward two more weeks, no baby. At the time I was a sophomore in high school, busy with volleyball and ignoring my homework. I came home from school after practice one day to find my dad home. I thought it was odd because he usually worked a little later than my mom, and she was not home. I asked where she was and my dad said her car had broken down, had a flat tire and she was at the mechanic to get it fixed. Hmm..ok then. Really odd.
For some reason I felt like being productive. I did my homework. Gasp! I did extra credit. *cough* NERD *cough* I cleaned my room. Absolute miracle! Through all of it I was wondering where in the world was my mom. I ate dinner, where's mom? Through homework, where's mom? I asked my dad again, "Where's mom?" Still at the mechanic. .....Ok then. I started to get more and more worried and it was actually time for me to go to bed and she still was not home. I heard the phone ring and sighed with relief because that had to be her. I went into my parent's bedroom to say goodnight and see what she said and all I hear is,
"Oh that's so great Greg! (my BIL) Tell her I love her! Congratulations again!"
"Um dad, why is Greg calling you?"
"On Melissa (sis) had her baby, it's a girl!"
I couldn't breathe. I didn't want to think. I just went to my room and cried. I cried for hours. Why would my parents lie to me? My mom wasn't at the mechanic! She was at the HOSPITAL with my sister! She was there! I WASN'T! How could this be happening!?
I was pissed. I was livid. I was bloody boiling mad. When I get mad, I cry like a baby because I have no control. I need to be in control of everything and I was no where near in control. I had missed her birth and I never wanted to talk to my parents again.
The story gets longer so if you need a bathroom break take it now...
Well the next day I was about to do some major damage. I didn't say one word to my mom. How could she do this to me? She had to drive me to school because I didn't have my license yet. She was just like normal. Asking me when my practice would be over, did I remember my lunch, like nothing happened. For those that don't know, I have a major attitude problem when I'm angry and boy was a giving some lip. She finally asked me if I was mad at her.
I don't remember what I said but I unloaded. I was screaming, crying, blaming. What made it worse was she had NO CLUE what I was talking about.
"HUH? Dad told me that your car broke down!" I was in disbelief.
"He said what? Why would he tell you that?" She was more surprised than I was.
I didn't know why he told me that and neither did she.
I guess word got around that I was upset (understatement) and my dad took me out of school to go see my sister in the hospital. I had been crying all day long and the tears were like a dam being opened when I saw Halle for the first time. She was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. She was laying in this little crib with a pink blanket and hat. I was overcome with emotion. There was a lady from my sister's church there and she said she would leave because she knew something was up. Apparently my sister had been induced and she had a really unfortunate experience with it. It only made me angrier to think that I wasn't there to help.
To this day the only explanation I've gotten from my dad is he wanted me to do my homework instead of be at the hospital.
I call BS.
Who really knows what the reason is. All I knew was I had this beautiful new niece that I could now spoil the heck out of!
Long story, brace yourself.
After my sister had my first two nieces so closer together I assumed that she would quickly have another one with her husband. Wrong-0. Alexis was getting to be 4, almost 5 and there was no newborn coming along. I thought I might nicely ask (bug the crap out of) my sister and see what the deal was. Well I can't say I'M the one that did it, but my sister got pregnant pretty quick after that. Oh I was so excited!
My sister and BIL make freaking cute kids. I knew this one would be no different. I felt different with this niece because I was a lot older and I felt like I knew a lot more about being an aunt. BTW, my sister never found out what any of her kids were before birth. I so plan on doing that too. Who cares about the stupid shower! I even helped name her. I came up with Halle, no matter WHAT my sister says. Like Halle Berry.
So flash forward to September 16, 2002 my sister's due date. No baby. Flash forward two more weeks, no baby. At the time I was a sophomore in high school, busy with volleyball and ignoring my homework. I came home from school after practice one day to find my dad home. I thought it was odd because he usually worked a little later than my mom, and she was not home. I asked where she was and my dad said her car had broken down, had a flat tire and she was at the mechanic to get it fixed. Hmm..ok then. Really odd.
For some reason I felt like being productive. I did my homework. Gasp! I did extra credit. *cough* NERD *cough* I cleaned my room. Absolute miracle! Through all of it I was wondering where in the world was my mom. I ate dinner, where's mom? Through homework, where's mom? I asked my dad again, "Where's mom?" Still at the mechanic. .....Ok then. I started to get more and more worried and it was actually time for me to go to bed and she still was not home. I heard the phone ring and sighed with relief because that had to be her. I went into my parent's bedroom to say goodnight and see what she said and all I hear is,
"Oh that's so great Greg! (my BIL) Tell her I love her! Congratulations again!"
"Um dad, why is Greg calling you?"
"On Melissa (sis) had her baby, it's a girl!"
I couldn't breathe. I didn't want to think. I just went to my room and cried. I cried for hours. Why would my parents lie to me? My mom wasn't at the mechanic! She was at the HOSPITAL with my sister! She was there! I WASN'T! How could this be happening!?
I was pissed. I was livid. I was bloody boiling mad. When I get mad, I cry like a baby because I have no control. I need to be in control of everything and I was no where near in control. I had missed her birth and I never wanted to talk to my parents again.
The story gets longer so if you need a bathroom break take it now...
Well the next day I was about to do some major damage. I didn't say one word to my mom. How could she do this to me? She had to drive me to school because I didn't have my license yet. She was just like normal. Asking me when my practice would be over, did I remember my lunch, like nothing happened. For those that don't know, I have a major attitude problem when I'm angry and boy was a giving some lip. She finally asked me if I was mad at her.
I don't remember what I said but I unloaded. I was screaming, crying, blaming. What made it worse was she had NO CLUE what I was talking about.
"HUH? Dad told me that your car broke down!" I was in disbelief.
"He said what? Why would he tell you that?" She was more surprised than I was.
I didn't know why he told me that and neither did she.
I guess word got around that I was upset (understatement) and my dad took me out of school to go see my sister in the hospital. I had been crying all day long and the tears were like a dam being opened when I saw Halle for the first time. She was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. She was laying in this little crib with a pink blanket and hat. I was overcome with emotion. There was a lady from my sister's church there and she said she would leave because she knew something was up. Apparently my sister had been induced and she had a really unfortunate experience with it. It only made me angrier to think that I wasn't there to help.
To this day the only explanation I've gotten from my dad is he wanted me to do my homework instead of be at the hospital.
I call BS.
Who really knows what the reason is. All I knew was I had this beautiful new niece that I could now spoil the heck out of!
One random day in January we took the older three nieces and went bowling. It was so much fun until we had to get ready to leave. Halle had the worst fit I've ever seen! She's normally really cool go with the flow girl but she was ticked off at us. I told Taylor to just take her to the car and let her scream until we could get the other two and their stuff to the car. We tell that story to her every once and in a while and she laughs along with us. At the time was didn't know how to smile well so she made this awkward face. I did that too.
Halle and Ashlyn together are hysterical. They are best friends and sisters and so adorably cute together. I don't think they would ever choose anyone but each other.
I was so happy to have Halle as a flower girl. She was so well behaved and very girlie. Halle is really up for anything and more of a tomboy so I was really proud how well she cleaned up. I'll never forget the first time she met Taylor Boy. She was only 10 months old but she just stared at him like I've never seen. Must be those gorgeous baby blues that I fell for too!
Gosh I miss her. She's really one of a kind. She makes me laugh like none of my other nieces can because she's so honest. At our engagement party someone brought a jello mold that looked bad but no one said anything, except for Halle. She looked at it and then my sister and said, "Mommy don't eat that, it's disgusting." I about died laughing. I still chuckle thinking about how honest she is. Like me. Honest with an attitude.Happy Birthday to my beautiful niece. I love you so much and miss you like nothing else. Your birthday may have been a sad time for me, but I have enjoyed everyday getting to know you and love you all the more. You will always be my Halle Baby!
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